Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Things I've Learned

-I've learned that the word "friend" has many different definitions.  I've also learned that, perhaps, I've used the word too freely over the years.  We grow and change, and friendships do the same...when they are true friendships.  So, to the couple of true friends that I have, thank you.  Thank you for always being there, and for putting up with my insanity.

-I've learned that some people may feel sorry for me.  I'm Lisa, "stuck at home" with the kids all day, while my husband works 3 jobs so we can afford life.  Please don't EVER feel sorry for me, for us.  We CHOSE  this life!  We chose for me to stay home with the kiddos.  We chose for me to be someone who gets to play with her kids all day, and not miss any important "firsts".  Our life, and the decisions that we've made work for us!  My life is exactly what I want it to be at this time.  Is being a SAHM always sunshine and butterflies?  Hell to the no.  But, being a SAHM has afforded me awesome memories of my kids growing and changing, memories that I will carry with me forever.  Why would someone feel sorry for that?  Do I see my husband as often as I'd like?  Nope.  Do the kids see him as often as I would like?  Nope to that, too.  But, at the end of the day, it's a sacrifice.  A sacrifice that he is willing to make FOR US.

-I've learned that my inner monologue while doing Zumba is pretty hilarious.  "If I do Zumba every day for a month, will I look like you, Gina the instructor?"  "Beto and Tanya have be 'doing it' behind the scenes, look at the way they look at each other during the "booty roll!!" "Damn it, Beto, you are not as hot as you think you are!"  I've also learned that Zumba, no matter how funny it may look, is a damn good workout.  And, by that I mean, I have fun while I'm looking like a fool.

-I've learned that my head and my heart don't ever see eye to eye. Things that seem so simple on paper aren't simple.  I've also learned that I stress over things, and overthink things way too much.

-I've learned that I'm at my happiest when I'm singing.  And cooking.  Being a caterer is something I've wanted for a long time, and I'm very pleased with my decision to get my certification .

-I've learned that I'm scared of a lot of things.  A lot.  Death, ghosts, the dark, people jumping out of no where in movies...that's the worst.  Moths are a huge fear.  Yes, moths.

-I've learned that I do not act my age.  Ever.  I think it's because no one ever believes that I'm my particular age.  Why act it if people think I'm younger?

-I've learned a lot from my children.  I've learned patience.  I've learned how to heal a 'boo-boo' with just a kiss.  I've learned different languages, like 'Jackanese' and 'Emmalaynian'.  I've learned that when my daughter tells me, "I don't likes you, Mommy", that she doesn't mean it and that I'll be getting a big hug in about 5 minutes.

-I've learned that after not liking kids for most of my life, that I actually really do like kids.  Something clicks when you give birth, something amazing.  That mothering instinct is no freaking joke.

-I've learned that I get bored very easily.  Kind of like I'm getting bored with this....

1 comment:

  1. lol I knew I couldn't be the only one who thought that about Beto and Tanya. :)
    I feel the same way about being pitied for having the life we chose. Then again, I have to remind myself at times not to feel sorry for us, because the life we have may not be the life I think I want (i. e. living in an apartment with 5 kids, hello) but it is actually exactly the life I want, b/c if what I really wanted was a house, I'd be working. What I really want is to be home with my kids and that's where I am. Good post! -- Bridget